That's All You Need (sephirothclone) wrote,
That's All You Need

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Miss Me?

"I love you more today than yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow"

I've never really noticed how beautiful that single line is. That's gotta be a good feeling. End random song musings

I've had so much fun over the last few weeks, it's really made me stop and look at how I've been livin' for most of my life.

I've done nothing. I've never really liked going out all that much, being much more content to lock myself up in a room with a game or a movie. That's cool for some of the time, but if you never ever leave the house, you're not living. You're not even close.

In the period between graduation and September, I did basically nothing. I still live at home, don't have a job, no license, no car, and no ambition. That's not what I wanna be for the rest of my life, the dude that's doin' nuthin'. As anyone who lives in the Bay and has tried to reach me for the last couple weeks knows, I haven't been home for a while. I've been in Sacramento, Hollywood, Ventura, and everywhere in-between (mostly since I drove to get to those places). I haven't really been doing anything drastically different from my usual routine. I've still watched flicks, played games, and just fucking chilled, but it's been in different places. I haven't been sitting in my room in Fremont. I haven't been wandering around Hayward.

I've been talking with loved ones in Elk Grove. I've been to my first concert (GREEN DAY!) in Sacramento. I've been fucking around in Ventura. I've been walking down Melrose in Hollywood. I've had the trippiest night of my life at Tim and Joey's place in NoHo. I've been having fun everywhere but here.

The past month has lead to me to realized how bogged down in my routine I've become. I've seen myself cramped-up in my bubble. My life as it is now has morphed into some stagnant beast. So, I'm gettin' the fuck outta here.

I'm not 100% sure where to, but I think I want to go to L.A. I think that the first season of Entourage is to blame for that decision. People have been trying to talk me out of it, but I think it's something that I've just really gotta do. It's a new experience, a new lifestyle. If I'm really to do the things that I want to do, I'll never be able to accomplish any of that staying here, a slave to tedium.

I've pretty much got my mind made up, but this is meant to inform people of what's goin' on, and to ask for people's input, and maybe to help a few people I know who are in similar situations. So, leave me a comment, let me know what you're thinking. I can't promise I'll heed your advice, but anything you'll say to me is bound to help in some way!
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